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Let the Adventure Begin

I've spent a month avoiding the writing of this post, largely because I can't figure out how to say it. Which isn't that different from how I was when I first found out and needed to tell my family. As result, I've written hardly at all. So here goes.



At the beginning of December I wrote this post on learning to be content. For those of you who don't remember, or don't want to click over, it was all about how sad I was that we had no plans for another baby anytime soon, the very important reasons for that decision and how I had finally begun to make peace with that.

In the meantime we started talking about adopting a child from Ethiopia from Drawn From Water. A friend was sure she could help us raise the necessary funds and so we started to look around for a 3 bedroom home we could move to and a larger vehicle so we could pass the home study. I didn't say anything about it because it was all in the very early stages and we were just finding out if it was possible still.

Well, less than a week after I wrote that post in December I found out that we won't be able to adopt this year either. You see, they don't let you adopt when you are pregnant. And I am, pregnant that is. Unexpectedly. In spite of ALL of our precautions, and they were many. (Let's just say we're one percenters.)

I have not paced the floor harder than I did in the space of time between finding that out and telling Aaron. Because how are we going to do this? Seriously? How am I going to keep working full time as a non-profit administrator, parent, teach and keep this home running when I'm sick and exhausted all the time? How are we going to afford this pregnancy, along with Aaron's dental work, the Boy's orthodontia?


But there was no going back now. Those questions will all have to be settled one way or the other. And after I told him, and his calm response settled me, I was able to be happy, joyful actually, because this is a good gift, even if the timing of it is difficult. There is always a way, and we will find it.

I wondered about telling people before 3 months and a heartbeat, because another miscarriage will be hard. But it will be hard anyway, and I am not going to not rejoice at the gift of a new child just because of the possibility that it may not live. That would be crazy, like refusing to let myself love my kids now because it might hurt too much if something ever happened to them.

So there has been much rejoicing here. Little says, "I a big sistew now, I will hewp that other baby to wearn how to walk." The Girl continues to give it silly names, jellybean, pink, snow, daisy, and hug and kiss it every night. The Boy, hopes that it lives, and that it's a boy, because "I already have three sisters, and if was a boy I could teach it how to play chess with me someday."

We made it through December. I even got most of my work done, though I was decidedly lackadaisical about holiday projects. I am tired, and hungry, and nauseous, which is good, that means all is as it should be. I was expecting this year to be an adventure, I just didn't think it would be quite like this.

21 comments:

  1. So, so, so very happy for you all! If any one should have lots and lots of kids, you guys should. (That's a huge compliment, in case you were wondering.) I know that if God chose to give you this child, he will work all things together for good.
    I totally agree on the tell everyone before 3 months thing. I have had lots of miscarriages, and they would not have been any easier to have suffered through them in secret. Big hugs and lots of love, pais

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  2. Congratulations! Unexpected blessings are the best kind.

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  3. Rachel3:54 PM

    Congratulations!!!! I'm very happy for you guys.

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  4. Oh wow!!!! Congratulations, Carrien.
    Keep me posted on everything, and remember, I'm always around if you need to chat. :)

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  5. Congratulations! I'm so happy for you! I'll be praying for all of you.
    God bless!

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  6. Congratulations!!

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  7. Praise God :) My little BIG BIG surprise after I was "done" is sitting in the next room reading, popping in from time to time to tell me something new and exciting about herself, me, God, the world, you name it.

    His plans are good. all the time. even when we just can't imagine what HE is up to ;)

    Congratulations!

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  8. Congratulations! Very very happy for you. xo

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  9. Aunt Carol P9:33 PM

    Congratulations Carrien & Aaron! With Jesus adventures like these always turn out well in the end.

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  10. Oh, Wow, congratulations!

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  11. That is so wonderful!!

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  12. Carrien, I'm so happy for you!

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  13. What a joy!!! Congrats! Praying for grace to help in time of need.

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  14. YAY!!!! A new baby!!!! So very excited for you. God will help you make a way for everything :)

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  15. Congratulations!!! :) Our little unexpected surprise is 17 days old, and I couldn't imagine not having her!!

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  16. I have tears in my eyes as I type, your posts are such a blessing and I pray this wee babe will be a blessing to you and your family. Heard a tip that beans (aduki, black-eyed, turtle etc) are very good for morning sickness. Many congratulations.
    Check out this blog - you might find it an encouragement for you:
    http://jkclarkfam.blogspot.com/
    Grainne

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  17. Congratulations you guys! I'm really, really happy for you! Everything will work itself out, just going one day at a time. Lots of love,

    Trisha

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  18. I have been meaning to drop back in and thank you for the encouragement, for the hugs. :) December was really busy!

    I never commented on the content post. I wasn't sure what to say. Yes, it's true, but . . . oh how sad to say "that's it." I have days when I wonder "is that it for us?" Can I be ok with not having another baby? maybe.

    Anyway, congratulations on your news! I am wishing for you lots of manageable morning sickness and a healthy pregnancy.

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  19. Anonymous3:02 AM

    Love & prayers for you all. it's funny how things happen for a reason. Siobhan

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  20. I have tears in my eyes as I type, your posts are such a blessing and I pray this wee babe will be a blessing to you and your family. Heard a tip that beans (aduki, black-eyed, turtle etc) are very good for morning sickness. Many congratulations.
    Check out this blog - you might find it an encouragement for you:
    http://jkclarkfam.blogspot.com/
    Grainne

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  21. Aunt Carol P7:22 PM

    Congratulations Carrien & Aaron! With Jesus adventures like these always turn out well in the end.

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