I had only read about 2 other blogs when I started this one back in 2006. One was a crazy humor sort of style that Aaron really liked called enraged baboon, and the other was written by my friend Rae of Journey Mama. I started it because I had some silly things to say about breasts, specifically, a form of making peace with the ones I was dealt and it seemed that a blog was the type of forum to use for random silliness. (I still get more random google traffic from that first post than any other since then by the way. Something about how I mention Halle Berry on Oprah and the word breasts in the same paragraph. It's a mystery to me why that would bring so many searches. Apparently there are people out there who really liked that episode of Oprah?)
I had no idea in 2006 that there was a blogging community. I had no idea that I would meet people over the internet that I feel just as close to as my real life friends. I didn't even know that was possible.
But this community changed me, for the better. There were women here on the internet who taught me. From their example I was able to find my way through the the maze that was my life and marriage to the place I began, only now there was joy in that place, and peace, and contentment.
And then this blog became the platform for The Charis Project. It became the place where ideas grew and children were cared for and I learned that the internet is an amazing place, full of kind, compassionate, giving people. It's because of this blog that we were able to do so much so quickly.
You're probably wondering why I'm taking this little trip down memory lane today. What this blog hasn't been is very focused. I haven't really decided or figured out why I'm writing. You know, besides that I love writing, and I want to tell the story. Truthfully, for me it's been exactly what a journal is, a place to record memories, thoughts, and heartaches. Only here it's had the added bonus of feedback from others, and a community to help me find my way through it.
I've been thinking recently however that I want more focus. I want to have a guide to what I write here. There is more to say. I have lots more to say. But without some sort of overarching concept, theme, some guiding purpose, much like life in general, I don't think it's as good as it could be.
So I'm asking you for your help, your opinion actually. Could you take a second and tell me what you really like about this blog, and what you don't like? Could you tell me your favorite posts? Your least favorite? The things that make you stare blankly at your screen before clicking away?
I care enough about this community, about what goes on here to try and make it better. I'd love it if you helped me out.