I didn't realize, until I put up that last post about Dek, that it had been a full month since I last posted anything here in this space.
Time really moves differently here. Days move slowly, and less happens in them, which I think ends to the melding of all of them together into a continuous blur and I look up weeks later and say, "What, it's October? I don't even remember September."
Some of that has to do with the oddness of the seasons, that I'm not used to, so I have no feeling of the passing of time from the weather.
So there's that.
And there's also the crazy business of those long slow days with the laundry, and the schooling, and the parenting, and the walks to the little store for dinner ingredients, and the never ending dishes, and the baby, who needs holding and feeding, and the desperately trying to stay awake long enough in the few moments every day that I have to sit down and write all the work things I have to write, and then still find time and energy to post. More often than not I sit down, finally, to write and end up falling asleep with my hands on the keys still. I have at least a dozen half begun posts sitting and waiting for me to be able to finish them without falling sleep.
It's not like I don't have a ton of things to write about either. I have a back log of things I want to tell you about. Like that time almost 6 months ago now, SIX MONTHS, when we rode on elephants.
And part of it is that some time in that last few months I started thinking I ought to take blogging more seriously, and craft my posts rather than typing on the fly and giving it nothing but a few cursory edits before publishing. I read other blogs where the writing is so amazing, and I think to myself that I ought to try for that. But not writing here at all because I don't have time to write carefully is not going to accomplish anything.
I will have no posts at all if I keep this up.
So I guess we are back to getting it done rather than getting it "right".
I have to just get all the jammed up things out any way I can right now so that they aren't lost forever.
Please forgive the lack of perfection around here. You know, like it always has been.
But I post very regularly on instagram, @carrien_laughs and facebook. So if you want an update every day, you should probably check there.
A friend here told me about this organization that sends volunteer nannies to families overseas in exchange for free room and board. She has a nanny through them and she's wonderful. So I figured, "Why not apply?" Part of me feels like I should be able to handle it all myself and that it's silly to ask for help with things like laundry and dishes. And then I remember how much longer it takes to do everything here, and how much goes undone as a result. I also remember that I'm working this year on getting better at asking for help. So. Anyone want to move to Thailand for a while and help us out? Click the link. Creepy stalkers need not apply.